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hello world.

im only 22 years old….but it feels like i have the responsibility of a 30 yr old. i’m not equipped to make the best decisions in life let alone the right ones. but i live life how i want to….or so i’d like to think. i try look all happy for everyone to see….but deep down, there is an emotional turmoil just waiting to come out. I’ve yearned for perfection in a mate and i’d like to think i have found one….that remains uncertain and some days he’s ok. my job…i don’t even know why i’m still there….maybe because i’ve worked sooo hard to get to where i am at that it just seems like a waste if i give up now. my family? ha! i have one yes…..but in the sense that i have a house but not a home….some nights i cant avoid but cry at how miserable my life has become as i get closer to being successful. but i guess its the price i pay for getting ahead.

but in reality….i would give up everything i have for one day of true and simple happiness. oh how I’d love to be an child again.